[There’s a heavy pause. Whatever control Subaru had of himself, it’s gone now.]

Do you know how awful dying is?!

[Something in his voice snaps.]

Do you know how many times I’ve died, just so that someone else could live? Do you know how many times I’ve seen the dead bodies of my friends, over and over -

[In all his anger, tears start to flow. This isn’t about Eren. It was never about Eren. Now, he just wants release.]

So don’t you tell me that it doesn’t matter whether you want to die or not!