[It’s a little silly, right? To think that a kiss or lying close would be a worse sin than destroying the world. Yeah, but, then again, there’s only so much Eren deserves, and he knows it isn’t Subaru’s love, or Mikasa’s, or Jean’s, or Thorfinn’s - or anyone’s.
[”Questionable taste”, Subaru says, but Eren could say the same back, and a hundred times more.
[They’re both here, and they both hate themselves - but it feels better to sit beside Subaru on the couch with a racing heart and a nervous itch. He doesn’t ever want to be alone again, to feel that clawing, awful emptiness at its worst.
[Subaru’s hand is still in his, and he isn’t running away. Sometimes Eren thinks that loving him is a worse fate than anything he could have done intentionally. Subaru should be scared away; he isn’t.
[Eren puts Subaru’s knuckles to his lips, but doesn’t press them down; warmth breath, soft skin.]
You’re special to me…[Soft words. He kisses Subaru’s knuckles - once, twice, three times. He doesn’t have to be special for anyone else. It’s alright to be a girlfailure an average guy. Eren likes him. He wants him…
[He shifts on the couch to better face Subaru. Keeping the boy’s hands in his, he lowers them back down to their laps, leans in, presses their foreheads gently together.]
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[It’s a little silly, right? To think that a kiss or lying close would be a worse sin than destroying the world. Yeah, but, then again, there’s only so much Eren deserves, and he knows it isn’t Subaru’s love, or Mikasa’s, or Jean’s, or Thorfinn’s - or anyone’s.
[”Questionable taste”, Subaru says, but Eren could say the same back, and a hundred times more.
[They’re both here, and they both hate themselves - but it feels better to sit beside Subaru on the couch with a racing heart and a nervous itch. He doesn’t ever want to be alone again, to feel that clawing, awful emptiness at its worst.
[Subaru’s hand is still in his, and he isn’t running away. Sometimes Eren thinks that loving him is a worse fate than anything he could have done intentionally. Subaru should be scared away; he isn’t.
[Eren puts Subaru’s knuckles to his lips, but doesn’t press them down; warmth breath, soft skin.]
You’re special to me…[Soft words. He kisses Subaru’s knuckles - once, twice, three times. He doesn’t have to be special for anyone else. It’s alright to be
a girlfailurean average guy. Eren likes him. He wants him…[He shifts on the couch to better face Subaru. Keeping the boy’s hands in his, he lowers them back down to their laps, leans in, presses their foreheads gently together.]
I want you…Let me have you…