[Eren knows that loving him is a fate worse than death. It’s cruel to spread that disease like this. He shouldn’t like it so much - feel comforted by, even - the way Subaru calls them both trash. Subaru is not (no one is) worse than him, but he gets so tired of people insisting he’s good when he knows he’s not. If Subaru says they’re both trash, then they’re both trash. It’s freeing, in a way, to feel equal to someone in that way…
[One corner of his mouth lifts, subtle but sharp. He glances at Subaru.
[He can do zero expectations. He’ll probably disappoint Subaru anyway, but sure.]
We’ll do what we feel, and what we want.
And no lying. [Eren lifts his head, looks Subaru dead in the eye. The smile has faded; he looks deadly serious.]
No matter what you’ve done, or what you tell me, you know I’m just as bad as you. So, you can tell me anything.
[It’s kind of a source of pride, isn’t it, that Subaru says that, but also said he wasn’t into guys? Eren figures it’s only a matter of time for anyone, but still.
[He drapes his arms over Subaru’s shoulders, hands lazily scratching at the nape of his boyfriend’s (boyfriend!) neck.
[He played himself again. He isn’t expecting the detailed compliment, and it makes his cheeks go red pretty much instantly. He didn’t blush from kissing like Subaru did.
[He’s no good at compliments like that…
[More kissing, then. He’s learning pretty quickly that action is a good way of expressing affection.]
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Re: Zero expectations
[One corner of his mouth lifts, subtle but sharp. He glances at Subaru.
[He can do zero expectations. He’ll probably disappoint Subaru anyway, but sure.]
We’ll do what we feel, and what we want.
And no lying. [Eren lifts his head, looks Subaru dead in the eye. The smile has faded; he looks deadly serious.]
No matter what you’ve done, or what you tell me, you know I’m just as bad as you. So, you can tell me anything.
That person…past all the bullshit…
That’s who I want.
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Then, he breaks it.]
…Man, you really do have bad taste…
[The person Subaru is, the person he’s desperately tried avoiding being, is the one that Eren wants…?
It’s hard to imagine. He should be grateful that someone would want him at his ugliest - and he is - but one scared part of him wonders…
…underneath it all, is there anything there?]
…You got it. No secrets. No lies.
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It’s settled, then.
And that means…
[He takes Subaru’s face in his hands again, kissing, kissing.]
I’m gonna be around more often. That okay with you?
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…Yeah. [A little breathlessly. A little stunned. He’s not used to this quite yet.] Come as often as you like.
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[There's a pause.]
You're really cute.
[It needs to be said. Just look at him!]
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That’s really not fair, you know…
[Face red, he protests.]
You really can’t say that kind of stuff in a tone like that and just expect me to take it…!
[He’s DYING, Eren!]
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Remember what I said on the network? I like the way you look.
Especially blushing like that.
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W-well…you’re not bad yourself, either.
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[He drapes his arms over Subaru’s shoulders, hands lazily scratching at the nape of his boyfriend’s (boyfriend!) neck.
[Big Green Eyes Attack. He’s watching.]
You think so? Subaru?
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Y-yeah. [He’s not unsure, just embarrassed.] I mean, you’ve got handsome features, and these big, pretty eyes, and your skin is really soft…
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[He’s no good at compliments like that…
[More kissing, then. He’s learning pretty quickly that action is a good way of expressing affection.]