I remember something though. When you were here before, you'd call me back to bed for at least twenty minutes every morning. Even if I'd fallen asleep with someone else, I'd come to see you.
I think you're the only one I'd let get away with saying that.
[Largely true. Hythlodaeus has let a "cute" slip through once or twice, but no one talks about Eren like Subaru does (knowing everything he knows, too).]
It would bother me if you didn't anymore.
[Does Subaru realize how rare Eren's honesty is? He's one of the only people afforded that too.]
That's what we call the 'Subaru Natsuki exception'! It's a privileged position held by only one man, so it's his duty to call Ere-chan cute as much as possible!
[Subaru had just assumed that he would return back like he has the past few times - it’s been a horrible thought to reckon with, but he always suspected he’d forget about Eren again - one day forever.
It’s just an old story, but it goes that lovers are bound by a red string tied around their finger…it’s invisible, so you can’t see it, but it can’t be cut or broken no matter how tangled it gets.
Honestly, after all this…I believe it. No matter how much it has to stretch, we’ll find our way back to each other!
[Ah. Of course. That would be Subaru's wish, the "everyone" as nebulous as ever. Eren is sure he must have had something specific in mind, but still, Subaru is the type who wants to save the world. These two established a long time ago that they're both rotten, but Eren's never truly believed it. He does recognize that "good" and "bad" people exist. He has decided Subaru is one of the "good" ones...]
You'll never stop trying, will you, love?
[He doesn't call anyone else "love" - doesn't call anyone else anything but their name. Subaru affects him in rare ways...]
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That’s why.
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[Though, there’s a small sting of jealousy…just how entitled is he to that? Not very.]
I’d start getting up early too, but there’s no way I can if you’re here with me…
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I remember something though. When you were here before, you'd call me back to bed for at least twenty minutes every morning. Even if I'd fallen asleep with someone else, I'd come to see you.
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[Hopefully he remembers the more dignified parts, not just his petulant whining...]
Think it'll still work on you now?
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Why do you worry about that being your impression? It's a fond one.
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"Ere-chan" - I'm surprised you'd still call me that.
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Guess it doesn't fit much anymore, huh? Well, even if you've grown a couple of inches, you're still my cute little Ere-chan to me!
[He has always been taller than Subaru.]
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[Largely true. Hythlodaeus has let a "cute" slip through once or twice, but no one talks about Eren like Subaru does (knowing everything he knows, too).]
It would bother me if you didn't anymore.
[Does Subaru realize how rare Eren's honesty is? He's one of the only people afforded that too.]
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When you left, it felt like a new type of death. Even if I'd never returned, I would have thought about you forever. Even after I died.
You've experienced other realities. Countless realities. So have I.
What's the likelihood, you think, of us meeting in another one after this?
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[Subaru had just assumed that he would return back like he has the past few times - it’s been a horrible thought to reckon with, but he always suspected he’d forget about Eren again - one day forever.
He doesn’t want this to be true.]
I told you, we’re connected by fate, remember?
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Tell me all about it, Subaru.
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Honestly, after all this…I believe it. No matter how much it has to stretch, we’ll find our way back to each other!
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If we're tied together, then someday, even after we leave this place, even though I'm dead, we'll find each other again.
Maybe we already have, in some other reality somewhere.
It wouldn't be the first time I could say something like that.
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But I don’t really care. Even if some other Subaru Natsuki is off living it up with you, I don’t care.
What matters is what this Subaru Natsuki gets to experience, and that’s what’s right in front of me.
That’s to say, that this Subaru Natsuki won’t rest until I see you again!
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You couldn't rest until you saw me again?
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I don’t think I knew it at the time, but in some part of me, it included you too.
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[Eren's didn't change...]
What wish was that?
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You'll never stop trying, will you, love?
[He doesn't call anyone else "love" - doesn't call anyone else anything but their name. Subaru affects him in rare ways...]
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Nah. I’m not giving up. No matter how many times I die, I’m still gonna keep getting back up until everyone gets their happy ending!
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cw: suicidal ideation
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we can wrap up oughhh